Surrendering to the waves

 I surrender to the waves that won't let me outrun

As they catch up to me quickly

Leaving no room dry

For my pain to hide

Everytime I fall back into my pattern

of wanting to feel better than someone else

when I am feeling insecure, threatened or envious

due to my unresolved pain or trauma being triggered

I yearn for an increasing remembrance and practice -

To spot and let go of my codependency trait to help others just to feel better about myself

To look at their positive qualities and go-

wow how do they effortlessly do something that I'm only beginning to understand and integrate

To let myself be awestruck and to ask them for their story with genuine curiosity

To sit back and hear them narrate with passion

their journey

Watching their eyes light up

as into their inner world

I'm granted entry

From one heart to another

The sharing of experiences

incomparably unique

Ahhh

The glories of empathic listening

And the power of story telling

No place for jealousy

Loneliness fading and

Love flooding

Natural appreciation

Of our strengths and differences

Beautifully strengthening our connections

3rd June, 2022